If you ask me what I came into this world to do, I will tell you; I came to live out loud.

~ Emile Zola

Friday, May 30, 2014

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... Now I have to venture forth for hydration...

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... I had a dilemma. Getting sleepy, but i haz a cannoli. In the fridge. In the other room. So far away. And it calls me.....

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... So....biofreeze is awesome. Also awesome? My dad. Who I will be visiting this weekend. So I can meet for lunch around NOVA tomorrow, and maybe eat while the traffic goes away. and I'm going to hit Ikea Sunday on my way home, so anyone wants to shop with me and stop for Swedish meatballs and ligonberry soda, let me know. That you can also help me pack my car with stuff is incidental. Promise :) Trying to remember everyone who lives there....I'll tag you if I think you do :) and i if I've left out anyone, add yourself !

Thursday, May 29, 2014

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... Survived deep tissue massage, barely. Head isn't surviving the front coming through. Plus hip hurts. Plus foot hurts. My entire right side, from head to foot, has decided to hate me today.

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... "Too often we enjoy the comfort of opinion without the discomfort of thought." -- John F. Kennedy

Wednesday, May 28, 2014

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... "Be certain that you do not die without having done something wonderful for humanity." ~ Maya Angelou That.

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... Today: Recover from yesterday's PT Deep tissue massage Recover from deep tissue massage

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via Facebook... Notice how I'm not sleeping? About that... Did my first real PT today. Thought it was actually pretty mild. HA! My hips don't lie, they are on FIRE. But not in a good way. And then I'm feeling noshy but I really ate plenty today so I'm busy trying to convince myself I'm not hungry. Which only makes me think about food. More. Sleepover at the capitol. Wish I could have been there. Wanting to know what's happening. And I think I'm going to start a wedding officiant business. Which means I've been buying books and researching it. Sara, you want in on this? We can handle a larger area as a team! And I'm starting new dog trainer training classes next week, and I'm going to visit my daddy this weekend....anyone in NOVA, if you want to meet for lunch on my way up on Friday, let me know! There are so many people I'd love to see! I need a wee fridge under my bedside table. Must make this happen.

Tuesday, May 27, 2014

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... New show on Netflicks to marathon through...

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... I was about to get up and make the coffee so I can do the walking and such, but Timber just laid across my legs. Trapped! Oh well, nothing else to do but first nap....

Monday, May 26, 2014

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... Planning a dinner menu for the week! #imgoingtocook #hopeisurvive

Sunday, May 25, 2014

Saturday, May 24, 2014

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... I have a headache. I also have a hungry. And, sadly, an extreme lazy. Also poor planning skills because I should have brought something to the bedroom.

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... Crazy harsh headache. Started as sinus, then set up shop on the right side of my skull, now it's on the left side. And my jaw. Well, I've actually had a good couple of weeks....

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... And...good night. I plan on sleeping until time for second second breakfast....

Thursday, May 22, 2014

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... *deep breath* So it looks like it might get be weeks yet (knock on wood it happens that fast) before insurance does its job and, you know, gets my house repaired. Because having a quarter of my house uninhabitable is so much fun. Talking to them gave me a rage headache. I hate this game of "let's see if she's easily intimidated or ignorant. Let's see if we can not live up to our end of the bargain. It's not like she's been paying us or anything." I promise to not pretend I'm replacing a diamond-encrusted good lamé carpet and you just replace what the hell is broken. Deal? Oh, and if you think you got it easy because the husband isn't here to "handle" things? Because you're talking to the little lady? Oh boy do you have a lot to learn...go on, speak slowly and use small words again. C'mon, I dare you...

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... That's it, going to collect bottle caps, walk the Divide, complete some quests...

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... Homeowner's insurance shouldn't be this hard.

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via Facebook... Big adventures today: Haircut. Explain to insurance company that clean up is swell, thanks, but monies for repair and replacement are also part of the gig and the check number needs to be moved by a decimal point. No, THAT way, goober. Since I have been sucked into project creep, find homes for all the displaced item currently lounging in my room. Anyone local want stuff? I got stuff, and I'm getting sick of the stuff I got. Including some shoes. I'm quickly getting into the "Oh, just take it, I never want to see it again" mood. Remember to never read the comments. Threaten to shut down interwebz as a motivating tool for The Teen to do a chore or three about the house. Remember that I can't actually shut it down, because than how would I talk to you? Appreciate the relationship with my kid, based on empty threats and sarcastic comments :)

Wednesday, May 21, 2014

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... So...I did the PT. Physical therapy. Great pride. Trainee, so we did ALL THE TESTS, just too practice. And learn. And what did we learn? I'm supposed to tighten my abs a few times a day. And tuck in. No crunches, I'm apparently not ready for any extreme moves like that yet. No lifting anything over ten pounds. NO running. I'm encouraged to walk ten minutes a day. No standing or sitting for more than 30 minutes at a time. I recline to exercise. On the one hand I feel so validated that I was in fact hurting, and hurting badly enough to get me to here, and getting worn out when I tried to push through because my body was damaged, not because I was just a lazy skacker On the other hand I feel slightly pathetic. FFS, most of my cats weigh more than ten pounds. From here to 13.1 seems like a long, long way. I'm embarrassed that my tone is overcooked pasta. My shape is rumpled. Tell me I'm awesome, I will be on this like chrome on a Harley. Matching straight ahead! Soon I will be all the buff and the tone!

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... "my days of not taking you seriously have certainly come to a middle..."

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... Text conversation that just happened between the Teen and I: Me: FOODS! Please. I'm dying :( Teen: You won't let me let you die :( _______________ I really don't know where he gets it, but I am a damned proud mama right now. *sniff* My little boy, all snarky

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... Yeah, I like this one better. "That girl you called a slut in class today. She enjoys sex and has slept with a few people. And that's none of your business. The pregnant girl walking down the street. She had unprotected sex with her boyfriend and got knocked up. And that's none of your business. The boy you called lame. He spends most nights in his room playing video games. And that's none of your goddamn business. That girl you pushed down the other day - wait, what? You go around pushing people down? What the fuck is wrong with you? Are you some kind of savage? Jesus. Anyway, that girl you called fat - she eats whatever the hell she wants to, because it's her body and that's none. Of. Your. Business. The old man you made fun of cause of his ugly scars. Okay. I just - were you raised by wolves? Particularly ill-mannered wolves? Who were also assholes? I don't care if the old man got the scars in WW2 or Korea or from that time his meth pipe blew up in his face. You don't go around making fun of people. This is basic stuff that you learn in kindergarten. You think you know them . Guess what? It doesn't matter if you do or don't. You treat people the way that you would like to be treated. It's not about whether or not someone is going to jump off of a bridge because of your hateful, pricktastic comments, it's that making hateful, pricktastic comments makes you a hateful prick. And if you can't manage to function in society without going around being hateful prick to people, maybe you should go back to the rude asshole wolves who raised you. Sound fair?"

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... I just realized why I wasn't feeling well... Eating. It's a thing I should do.

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... Okay, back to try to sleep. Maybe two more hours? Would be helpful...

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... Two hours. Two hours of sleep. Yay, me. *sigh* I'll try for a few more....

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... Night...

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via Facebook... A haiku, from my brother Ambian please work Darlene won't stop babbling We all need to sleep.

Tuesday, May 20, 2014

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... Okay. Taking this show to bed. Who knows? Maybe sleep will happen before voracious nomming... Or before project creep has me with shelves scattered across my room.

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... Cooking for yourself, to eat by yourself, is damned depressing. It's been a long time since I felt this single. Eating is such a social thing. For me, at least. I haz a hungry and a sad. Steve, I miss your cooking! When you come visit you better get into the kitchen and make me fuds! Bunches, so I can freeze and eat later.

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... I'M SELLING ALL THE THINGS!

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... I made a terrible mistake. Terrible. I laid down and SLEPT. At like 8. And woke at 10:something. And now I will never sleep again.

Monday, May 19, 2014

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... I...ate too much...cupcake....

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... Four jumps and six weaves!

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via Facebook... And...cue blinding headache and nausea. NOES! I HAVE ALL TEH STUFF TO DO!

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via Facebook... Damn my To Do list. What I want to do: pull up covers, cuddle with my dogs, sleep, pain meds as needed. What I have to do: put window film on window to stop Timber threshold (just blocking the window worked for three seconds, until Timber got around it!) Realize the window film isn't going to be enough, remove windows, add wall. Realize that won't be enough, crawl into crate with cupcakes to sooth myself. Get more cupcakes. Rehome items I no longer need. Preferably for money, but free to a good home is also good! Yes, I'll be going through shoes, Miss Melanie! See how much agility equipment can be used and/or repaired and isn't damaged, and get it set up. Then go and BUY MOAR THINGS! For the dogs. So totally doesn't count as buying stuff for me. Right? Call insurance and see if they ever plan on contacting me again. I need a window and a floor and a fence and all kinds of things. Remind myself that none of this is an emergency, plenty have it worse, but know I'll be impatient anyway. Be glad I had friends who were willing to help my houseguests, and be happy that they were able to start their journey west, because my space might not be habitable for weeks yet :( Feel vaguely guilty that I allowed a tornado to mess up my house. Enjoy saying "oh, got hit by a tornado!" Because it's another checkmark on the Things I've Experienced list. Eat a cupcake that Courtney brought me all the way from DC! Maybe eat two. Plan trip to DC to eat MOAR CUPCAKES! Start cleaning out FROG on the off chance insurance one day will pay my claim. This means detritus. And heavy things. Sort items for yard sale on shelves in garage. Play with puppies. Make eye doctor appointment. Because I'm tired of squinting at the tv. Continue the reconfiguration of my bedroom, cleaning of closet, and placement of new crates. Get packed up, drive three hours, stand up for the rights of all the people in my state....Yay Moral Monday! Maybe get in some civil disobedience, maybe next time. Later this week, along with anything I procrastinated: Start PT. Decide on hip needle jab or topical meds. Intense short term pain vs. less intense longer term pain Sex Trivia with friends! Walk away feeling proud, or with a new To Do list ;) Suck it up and actually eat something that wasn't frozen first, for my health. Start begging friends to invite me over to dinner. FOR MAI HEALTHS! Decide that bread and cheese is a perfectly fine diet. With wine. Life is really, really awesome! Oh, someone I know had a house fire, and her daughter needs 3 and 4T clothes, if anyone can help please pm me.

Sunday, May 18, 2014

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... Local-ish peeps. I'm driving to Raleigh tomorrow for the Moral Monday, and I'd love to car pool!

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... Grr. Awake. Significant discomfort battling with almost comfy position in bed. Disrupt to get meds? Or hope I just naturally stuff off into sleep? Bwahaha! Yeah, I'll go get some meds.... In just a second. I'm so cozy....

Saturday, May 17, 2014

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... Shhh...nap time...

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... Okay, I want the injection on the other hip. Wow, what an amazing difference! A few days of ow, but now all the pain is centered on the untreated hip, which hurts exponentially more. I think I'm going to call on Monday. I don't mind PT, but why wait weeks for relief?

Friday, May 16, 2014

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... So...on allyship and general "BUT YOU MUST LISTEN TO ME OR MY FEELINGS GET HURT" bullshit... Here is the thing...If your allyship is conditioned on needing your voice to be heard? Good bye. Don't let the door hit you on the way out. You aren't really an ally, you have your own agenda and are demanding that I meet your expectations. You are trying to hold hostage my equality to your demands of privilege. And that? It's actually oppression in sheep's clothing. "I think you should make a right here and take the bypass." "Thanks, but I have a route I prefer." "No, you really need to listen to me and follow the directions I'm giving you." "Thanks, but I really would rather go this way." "You need to listen to me." "Look, this is my car, I'm driving, and we are going to my party. I'm pretty sure I can get there without your advice, but thanks for chipping in for gas and keeping me company." "WHY ARE YOU OPPRESSING ME! How dare you get mad when I invited myself along to your party! If you want my gas money you better follow my directions, or I won't even go with you. And then what will you do?" _______________________ That is the conversation. Me? I pull over and let you out.

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... Awake...back to sleep.

Wednesday, May 14, 2014

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... Dr. Timber steps in...

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... I'm going up to visit my dad this weekend, so I'll be in the DC/NOVA area on Sunday...anyone want to do lunch?

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... Time for food and pain meds. PT starts next week. Soon I will run again! But for now...hobble to kitchen.

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... There is nothing like a shot directly into the sore hip bursa to wake you up...

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via Facebook... I am in HUGE trouble! I had my phone on the counter, and suddenly I hear "Beep beep, what can I help you with?" George Cat turned on Siri.

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via Facebook... Good week planned! Today a visit with the ortho for my hip pain...see if we can make that go away. The floor people should be calling soon for an estimate, the insurance company should hopefully maybe get back to me, and I'm going to see my daddy this upcoming weekend. AND the Moral Monday protests start next Monday. And yesterday my house cleaner did an amazing job, and life is so much easier in a clean house. Plus my garage is almost completely cleaned out... And I'm having a two cat, two dog morning snugglefest

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... Bed. Sleep. Awesome wonderful day. For tomorrow to be one I need some sleep.

Monday, May 12, 2014

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... Proper Timber head rub sequence: Top of head, right side of face, chin, up to left side of face, top of head, knuckle in right ear, right side of face, chin, left side of face, knuckle in left ear, snout runs, top of head. Repeat as necessary.

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... Well, unfortunately the tornado damage left the extra room unlivable, and after over a week temporarily at a friend of mine's house (thank you, Courtney, for opening your heart and home! Your kindness and generosity is part of why you are such an awesome friend!) the circumstances were such that my house guests needed to start the next part of their journey early. I wish them all the best! It was great having a little one in the house, and I'm so glad I was able to open my home to others, even if the weather decided to make things difficult. Now to get my house repaired and restored from all the damage done :)

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... Body: YOU WILL ACCEPT MY AUTHORITY! Cannot wait for brain transplants. That'll show you, body, being all achy and mean. What'll you do without a brain? Huh? Then what? Yeah, thought so.

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... To sleep. Or not. I never can tell until I actually fall asleep. Or don't. I'll see you in the morning or in an hour or so, depending :)

Saturday, May 10, 2014

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... So, I had a not great day. If anyone has any questions or comments about said day please just message me or text me before making any judgments.. Which I expect from my friends anyway. Love you all!

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... Today was going to be DO SOME OF THE THINGS! kind of day, but instead it's a DO NONE OF THE THINGS! day. That's what weekends are for.

Friday, May 9, 2014

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... Today I have to do ALL THE THINGS but my body got beat up last night doing the Pilates with Priscilla, also I am actually alone and unsupervised in my house. And it is deathly hot and humid out. We will see how this goes.

Thursday, May 8, 2014

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... "Oh, I found your bandaid! It was in my bra." Things you never thought you'd hear.

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... Gots to go do the Pilates with Priscilla. Because...shape and tone. Or something. You see how motivated I am here. EXERCISE ALL THE PARTS!

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... *sigh* Time to do some of the things... Also, I need a butler. Where do you get one?

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... I need to start doing ALL THE THINGS! But my couch is cozy and the dogs are sleeping.

Tuesday, May 6, 2014

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... I was number 61 at the polls today....people better be voting!

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... Feed the zoo, go vote, wait for the clean-up people to remove the dehumidifiers and fans, hope the floor people call to set up a time for an estimate, wait for insurance adjuster to tell me they are paying for it all.... A busy day, indeed. Probably should get out of my pajamas for this one. Where did I put those yoga pants?