If you ask me what I came into this world to do, I will tell you; I came to live out loud.

~ Emile Zola

Friday, August 29, 2014

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... First immunotherapy visit. Waiting to see if I blow up like a puffer fish... So far, so good

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via Facebook... Maggi challenged me to name a bunch if books that had an impact in my life. Don't have to be grand literature, just those books I still cling to and re-read every year. So in no particular order: There's a Monster at The if This Book. (I read that about elebenty gazillion times as a child. My mom would patiently act out all the terror with me at every turn of the page). Before school every started A Little Princess. I wanted to be Sara Crewe SO BADLY. I always thought, and still do, that her genuine compassion and kindness was something to be emulated. The first boom that taught me the joys of giving--even if it's your last bit of food, because someone else is much hungrier than you. Little Women. Yes, I'm Jo. Gone With The Wind. Yeah, as I got older I started seeing all the sweeping issues, but even at nine I had issues. But Rhett was my first real literary crush. Isaac Asimov: I, Robot. The cleverness and humanity of the robots and the human detectives. Never a fan of Foundation, but the Robot stories won my heart. High school Why I Am Not A Christian, Bertrand Russell. Also high school. Catholic high school. Teachers loved me :) Death bird Stories; Harlan Ellison. Because an introduction to some of the most power damned writing ever. Read it. Today. Good Omens. Gaiman and Pratchett. Funny, witty, clever, satirical, pointed, and naked truth. All wrapped in dry British humor. Read it today. The works of both those authors. Trust me. A Prayer For Owen Meany. Read the first sentence and if that doesn't intrigue you I don't even know who you are. It is the only book that I spend an hour weeping during, no matter how many times I've read it. The Lucifer Effect; Zimbardo. Why people do evil things. It matters. The Killing Joke; graphic novel. Because all the separates me from evil is one bad day. The Watchmen; graphic novel. Because it matters. Also, Rorschach is my fav. He needs a hug so bad. All of Poe and HP, of course. Les Miserable because me daddy spent months reading it aloud to me. I was seven. It was magic. Okay. I'm in transit and could probably think of others were I looking at my shelves, and on a different day I'd have a different list. I'm going to tag Ashley Campbell, David Rain Beverly, Mark Williams to do the same. If you do so, I owe you a bottle of your choice :)

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via Facebook... I AM SYMBIAN . GIRL NO. I AM AMBIAN GIRL. ABLE TO NOD OFF IN A SINGLE DEVOID SECOND UNABLE TO READ HER KEYBOARD WHICH SEEMS TO BE MOVING THE LETTERS STUPID AROUND. THE SCREEN IS QUICKLY... NO IT ISN'T. THE SCREEN IS WOBBLY (YES YES YES). I'M ALSO EATING. THINGS. SANDWICH. CHUCK LATE.NO RIDICULOUS. CONCENTRATE YOU CAN DO THIS...... CHOCOLATE ! AND MUCH OF IT! Get in my belly. My cat looks.disgusgusted with me. Bes a cat. He always looks thag wah

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

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via Facebook... "Bullets cannot be recalled. They cannot be uninvented. But they can be taken out of the gun." -Martin Amis

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via Facebook... "No matter that patriotism is too often the refuge of scoundrels. Dissent, rebellion, and all-around hell-raising remain the true duty of patriots." -Barbara Ehrenreich

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via Facebook... If there are gods, there would be a god of chocolate. She'd be a little round thing, with chocolate stains on her toga, throwing bon bons at people. She's how you find that bar hidden at the bottom of your bag at a desperate time when you thought you were out...

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

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via Facebook... Okay, I'm getting a dashcam. I'd like one that records forward and back, and if one exists that will livestream all the better. Recommendations from those that know such things? Also, is go-pro the handheld video camera of choice? Is there better, cheaper, whatever-er?

Friday, August 22, 2014

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via Facebook... At the neurologists, waiting. Eventually I'll find someone who can help! Where's Dr. House when I need him?

Thursday, August 21, 2014

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via Facebook... Okay, time to do ONE OF THE THINGS! Maybe even two, if I'm feeling good :)

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via Facebook... RT @suey_park ""I can't believe this is happening" is a confession of privilege."

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via Facebook... Update from Timber: I need help. Soft Lady has a problem. She keeps going "SQUEE THERE IS A POOFLE ZOMG YOU HAVE POOFLES!" and plucking chunks of undercoat from me. The Cat says she is harvesting my coat for nefarious purposes. Also, when I start running around they call me Tervnado. okay, gotta go, it's Poo O'clock...

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via Facebook... So that 2048 game? Got it! Won twice (had to repeat the results to make sure). Once you get the pattern down it's not that hard. Is there one that goes higher?

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

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via Facebook... I was going to do things but Timber crawled over me for his second nap. My left arm is pinned beneath his legs, and his head is across my chest, his eyes are closed and he's snuffling quietly in his sleep. I CAN'T EVEN REACH A CAMERA! He is super cuddly and adorable today,

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

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via Facebook... OMGWTFBBQ. So I see a strange name like one of my posts and I go to see who it is: It's a guy who is following me (On the facebook, not in real life) and his wall is full of these pictures of woman dressed all sexy and stuff... I blocked him, but EWWWWW! All his pages were like "Sexy Matches" and stuff like that. Eww.

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via Facebook... My days-long headache just erupted into a ball of flaming butter knives jabbing into my brain and behind my right eye. And into my right ear. Possibly slowly burning my skull away to expose what brain I have left. Also, they are butter knives because sharp ones wouldn't hurt as much as dull blades. Also, I think my lower jaw may fall off. Also, don't tell me to go into a dark room and close my eyes because I can't because my brain doesn't just stop because it's being attacked with knives of fire.

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via Facebook... This. Thank you Christopher "WTF is it with people being so clueless about addressing problems in our society directly, and talking about issues in a responsible, healthy manner? The entitlement of ignorance, and the tactic of avoidance frustrate me to no end." If I hear one more person try to defend #Ferguson police I might literally have blood come shooting out my eyes. It's racism, it's wrong. The only "discussion" is white people trying to defend their privilege and deny racism. Stop. Just stop.

Monday, August 18, 2014

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via Facebook... RT @MrMilitantNegro "#Ferguson Is WORLDWIDE. Demonstrators At The US Embassy, London Stand In Solidarity With #Ferguson #HandsUpDontShoot http://ift.tt/1pAIfVe"

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via Facebook... #Ferguson about to get worse with the National Guard coming in. My heart is heavy. Any plans for buses or car pools to support protesters? Local demonstrations?

Sunday, August 17, 2014

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via Facebook... My Misha had the poops. All night. Every two hours or so. Her wake-up-Soft-Lady method is to breath heavily in my face. If that doesn't work she jams her snoot under the neck and flips me over. I haz a tired. She seems to be doing fine now...

Saturday, August 16, 2014

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via Facebook... Sinus...pressure...too much. Teeth hurt. I also have this pain in my chest. I was almost convinced I was having a heart attack but it turns out I had smacked myself on something (oh, like Timber's head) and I have a small bruise. My brother Brian assured me that my heart was very safe in the jar by the bed where I keep it. Also I need a small rest day after vacation. Time for first nap.

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via Facebook... So this is how my day has gone....on a post defending the police of Ferguson as being real swell people. ____________ Me: Any good cop who protects a bad cop is a bad cop. When cops show up in riot gear they invite riots. When they show up and walk with protesters in peace they actually do their job of serving and protecting the people. They gunned down an unnamed teenager. Their integrity is in question. They have no integrity as long as murdering teenagers is okay. Her: I thought you had unfriended me, I liked that better. Honestly, YOU CAN FUCK OFF _________________ The level of actual discourse on other threads have gone about the same, meaning mostly just insults and babbling. But we have no race problems at all, obviously, because that's what white people say....

Friday, August 15, 2014

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via Facebook... I am home from a week away. I do not like being home. Home is where things are messy because I wasn't home for a week to keep things semi-organized. Also home is where mail that has bills is. And also dirty stuff I was able to ignore for the week. I think I need to just keep visiting people so I'm never home. That's like the ultimate lazy way to never vacuum again. Besides, away I had really wonderful friends come visit me! Need to do more of that!

Thursday, August 14, 2014

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via Facebook... “@brassiest: #Ferguson MT @ShimonPro: Cpt. Johnson: There will be no teargas tonight, has ordered cops to remove gas masks http://ift.tt/1rxKl6M”

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via Facebook... I am so angry. So full of rage. And yet I'm not being arrested and likely my son will never be harassed or shot on the street with his hands in the air. I am so sad, and I feel so powerless. But really, I have the privilege of not having to explain to my child how to not get shot. How to talk to a cop for being pulled over, again, for having the audacity of driving while black. I don't know what to do. Drive to Ferguson and be a witness? Get gassed and arrested? Stay here and post angry Facebook statuses? How do I use all the privilege and power I have to make sure no more children die in the streets? And if this is the anger and grief I feel, what do those in Ferguson feel? I can't imagine that much pain. That much grief. This has to stop. We have to all stand up and say that this stops here. Now. That we will not let this be the legacy we leave for our children. We must never just be bystanders. We need to fix this. And it starts with us. And ends with us.

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

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via Facebook... The Timber Diaries, Beach Edition.... In Which Soft Lady gets Assaulted and Assanded by Evil Ocean Waves and Discovers Sand in ALL THE PLACES Timber Teaches Soft Lady the Joys of Naked Outdoor Showers and How Sandy Dog Hair has Excellent Exfoliating Powers Aliens Disguised as Paper Bags try to Infiltrate the Dog House Timber Chases a Deer but Doesn't Jump the Fence! Many Women Love on the Pirate and the Pirate nibbled on Much Hair ;)

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via Facebook... Friends, I need your help! My watermelon tequila thing isn't happening...the tequila bottle is still almost full and won't drain into the watermelon. If I try to pull out the bottle it's going to glub all over. HALP! How can I save this experiment!

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via Facebook... Screaming headache. Screaming. So unfair when on vacation :(

Monday, August 11, 2014

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... Just like Pagliacci did I try to keep my sadness hid Smiling in the public eye But in my lonely room cry the tears of a clown When there's no one around

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via Facebook... Oh no, Robin Williams... You will be missed.

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via Facebook... "The true civilization is where every man gives to every other every right that he claims for himself." --Robert Green Ingersoll

Sunday, August 10, 2014

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... Proper Wake Up Soft Lady Pouncing Technique

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via Facebook... "Um, Soft Lady? Enough napping, it's almost close to DINNER time..."

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via Facebook... Oh so yummy! Roadside Refresher...

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via Facebook... Mom: "do you want the clam chowder soup?" Kid: "does it have clams in it?" Mom: "not really, they just say that." #cantmakethisup

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via Facebook... Tis not fair that, after waking me up, the dogs are peacefully sleeping again and I'm awake. I'm on vacation! I should be sleeping!

Thursday, August 7, 2014

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via Facebook... Packing for the beach = two laundry baskets. One full of clean clothes nested in the other. Sheets and towels already packed. Beach stuff needs packing. Ug. Fridge stuff. Not bringing much, stores at the beach.... PACK ALL THE THINGS!

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via Facebook... AND...cue sinus/tension headache. Screaming headache. My teeth hurt.

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via Facebook... #howisleep Also, why I'll never fall out of bed.

Wednesday, August 6, 2014

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via Facebook... Sigh. I need to bandage my feet (New shoes, sweaty feet, much walking to bathrooms and beer. Not that those two last things are related. At all), get dressed, and be ready for my message at 1. Yes, you wish you were me today. It's a hard life but someone has to do it.

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

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via Facebook... Holy hell. If you can see NIN DOOOOEEEET!

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via Facebook... Sweet baby Jesus Trent reznor is gorgeous

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via Facebook... If the distortion wasn't so bad that the lyrics were unintelligible maybe this wouldn't be torture? Or am I just freaking old? Holy shit, I'm old. I am old getting mad at this newfangled music, omg.

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via Facebook... At the concert place TWO HOURS EARLY! My Teen is weird.

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via Facebook... So a 1:30 appointment means 2:00+? Weird time keeping here.

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via Facebook... Off to the ENT to see if he can do something useful for the vertigo, then off to wander VA under NIN and Soundgarden.

Monday, August 4, 2014

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via Facebook... Almost home! I miss my puppies...

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via Facebook... Almost home! I miss my puppies...

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via Facebook... The Teen puts together one kick ass playlist. Only one skip in 147 songs. He has far surpassed me in music.

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via Facebook... Stopped for fuds. Truck stop, because they have the best fuds. The Teen had a great idea that we should travel all over and blog and vlog and yelp and Instagram all our adventures. We might try some short trips and see how we do. Four more hours until I'm home with my puppies...

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via Facebook... Lacey with her new mom! And she likes sitting in the big truck.

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via Facebook... I'm getting the lovin's!

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via Facebook... True dog facts: Lacey enjoys eggs and bagels with cream cheese. True story.

Sunday, August 3, 2014

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via Facebook... First she snuggled with The Teen, now she's letting me share her pillows :)

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via Facebook... Had a great dinner with Lacy, now I'm back in the room drinking crappy wine made better with the addition of some sprite....

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via Facebook... Meet Lacey! She is off to a life of adventure, complete with big sister Stella Mae and pig sister Piggy Sue. So happy that Christina made space for this lovely girl!

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via Facebook... Get up, pack, drive to Charleston, SC! Just overnight, a friend of a friend needed a dog rehomed, so I get to drive an Aussie girl halfway :)

Saturday, August 2, 2014

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via Facebook... Sometimes you just have to get Soft Lady's attention by crawling right up her. And then snuggling in. A pirate requires huge amounts of love, you know.

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via Facebook... I slept until noon. Granted, I feel asleep late because of my nap, so it was a normal 7.5 hours of sleep, but I haven't done that in years! Felt good :) Hip not hurting so much. Got sleep. Have an awesome husband. There are my three positives for today :)

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via Facebook... I napped, so now no sleep. But I have you to keep me company!

Friday, August 1, 2014

Darlene Pineda

via Facebook... So...when they inject the bursa they include lidocain and some other longer-term numbing agent. They have worn off. My thigh muscle are like a rock, and it feels like someone jammed a sharp pointy thing into an already-sore hip and dug around with it.

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via Facebook... And....I'm awake. Didn't take a pain pill at the scheduled time. Because I'm a dumbass, that's why. Because it didn't hurt that bad.... ....Because I was on the pain pills. Forgot that part. See above. Or, to be fair, I was a wee zoinked. Corrected and now y'all get the pleasure of my company for an hour or so!

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via Facebook... And...that's it. I'm to sleep, see you in a few hours...